i think everyone stumbles upon a point in their life where you just need to find yourself.you need to take a moment just for yourself. well i cant speak for anyone else. but i cancertainly speak for myself... a slowly fading love. hating my job. temptations of anold life call my name. an old life not worth living. so much stress i feel. so many emotionsi should keep to myself, just for the benefit of happiness in the end. but thats all too hardfor me right now. i want to make a life and a living for myself. i want to be excited to wake up every morning. i still wish i saw the face of the one that holds my heart everytime i wake. but this is something i need to do. i want to get this job. my plans for the future at this moment depend on this job. i hope to save up enough money by october for my birthday. And right now, i need space.i need to grow and learn myself how to live life. put my heart and soul into making something of myself. i plan to switch numbers and be out of contactfrom a everyone, except a certain few. after a few months of being on my own. and finding out what i want and need, ill call the ones i care about. the people i want to beinvolved in my life. the soul search is on. well in the process. but thats not bad. i needed it. i want this for myself. i feel a certain wayabout this certain someone. and i hope she feels that way too. but after some time i may feel different. im not certain. but its a possiblity. but right now, i cant afford to depend on anyone but myself. i need me right now and thats for sure. i have confidence thati can build the life ive always wanted. and when im stable then i can bring someone elseinto it.
No comments:
Post a Comment